I cannot even begin to express how excited, scared, nervous and anxious I am to be embarking on this journey. On the one hand, I cannot WAIT to have the hot, strong body I've always wanted; but on the other hand, I am aware of the arduous this kind of undertaking will be.
I tend to keep stuff like this to myself but I have let as many people know as possible that my intent is to compete, so that I will be held accountable in the eyes of the "public," so to speak. I have told my best friend Joe to keep tabs on me, and I will do the same for him, since both our goals for 2013 are to get in shape, and to reclaim our "zazz.." I should probably explain that more in a future post...
So for tonight, as the last night of the year, I am going to have maybe a few drinks and just have a good time.
My last indulgent meal of 2012 shall be some good ol' Mexican food.. with tamales, of course. Hopefully, my next cheat meal will be a reward... once I have reached my goals for the year :-) It's not punishment in my eyes because, while I can have drinks and delicious food, I believe it's time for me to find my true potential and bring to life my best self. Because that's more rewarding in my eyes, and even though I have yet to reach that goal, I know it will be worth all the sweat, tears, & the passing up of fries & chocolate cake.
And besides, this could teach me that I can rise above culinary temptation, which [while delicious] inhibits me from realizing my strongest, most confident self, and my potential for an excellent physique. Like I told my boyfriend last night, over our late night cookies-and-creme-frozen-yogurt-topped-with-whipped-cream-and-crushed-almonds snack, "I will never cheat, or backstab a friend, or steal someone's money... but I'd eat the sh*t out of that ice cream or tamale."
And tomorrow, it begins.
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